Why is that all the things i want to put here on my blog for posterity blah blah blah always occurs for me when im driving or falling asleep or musing out the window at work when im sposed to be working? (nah it never happens at work otherwise id put it in here straight away right??? DUH!)
so all my magnificent thoughts are lost in the cosmos....
strange i spose
but then again if my thoughts are the butterfly that once let go comes back................then they were meant to be here
for me to read in the future
but for now they are all safely kept in my head and my heart
and some of them excite and inspire
and others tear me limb from limb
but its all good - i got some masking tape somewhere around here! ;-)
my phase now is to BE with the emotion and the thoughts and accept them
not to make them wrong or bad or change them into good happy thoughts becoz that process is exhausting me to no end
my ends are frayed, my body spent but maintaining momentum anyways......
but i see the ends nearing
and the fear has stopped me up until now
but now i CHOOSE it - stand fearless in the face of my uncertainty
may the Universe stand with me Hold me strong May my friends and my soul keep me upright
becoz i feel myself slipping quickly

oh the ramblings of a sad soul
next time will be better!!!!
love ya babe
xxxxx